Lately I have been just thinking about the life I have.  The gift that has been given to me.  I don’t know, lately I really feel like the devil is really trying to pry his way into my life and destroy the hope I have in Jesus.  I know I stand on the solid rock but its been making me weary.  The Lord has been at work within me for the greater good and for His purpose. I just feel this spiritual tension and battle with my soul and this world continually.  I hate it sometimes because I think and give into the world as to what it tells me.  And the Holy Spirit is there to redirect me.  I just feel like I am being eaten alive in this world sometimes.  So many lies and deciet that the devil tells me…the devil keeps putting in my mind that I will not find security in my faith.  The Lord is strong in my heart though, I know it to be.  And I praise Him for that.  Thank you so much for loving me Lord, just believe!  I have a poem from “A Purpose Driven Life” that I am reading.

You are who you are for a reason.

You’re part of an intricate plan.

You’re a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God’s special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

he knit you together within the womb,

You’re just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

There were custom-designed with God’s plan in mind,

And they bear the Master’s seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy. 

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape you heart

So that into his likeness you’d grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You’ve been formed by the Master’s rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

There’s a bigger picture we can’t see…cuz He is the creator.  He is the first I am and the present nd the last, He is tommorrow and today and He is the way.  Amen to that.

This morning the Lord was moving in my life.  I don’t understand it right now but I know it to be real because it is something I dont understand but what I feel in my heart.  I experienced something last night that hurt me from within but I know God is healing me right now.  My prayer is that I can forgive in my heart the person who hurt me.  I remember talking to Grace about the wind and how it represents God to her.  Today I felt the same when I was sitting in my room with the window open I felt God telling me to open up the Bible and talk to Him through that.  My father the night before told me to read Psalm 104…when I sat down to open the Bible I just open the Bible randomly and there was Psalms 104.  These are little things and some people may say it was a coincidental but I know it was God.  You just know it is God, I really can’t explain, but It so real that I couldn’t help but cry.  I don’t understand but I just know its Him.  Lord I thank you that you are the calmer of the storm in  my life.  Thank you Lord that you remind me to never trust in me.  There on the storm, taech me Lord to understand of you will that I cannot control.  Thank you Lord that your love is always protecting me. 

“But His delight is in the law of the Lord, And in His law he meditates day and night.  He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.”

Psalm 1:2-3

Dear Heavenly Father I call upon thy name and I pray Lord that we would live in your delight and that you will cause us to be fruitful in our faithfulness as you always remainn faith to your dear children.  Father I ask that you would guard my heart, mind and soul throughout this day and as well for my brother’s and sister’s in Christ.  Lord you are so faithful and great in our lives.  How can anyone deny your greatness.  It would be crazy to choose this world over eternity.  Lord help us to live our daily lives in your presence and fill us up with you Holy Spirit.  Be with me and guide me and caution me when there is temptation and deliever me from all evil.  Lord guide our prayer team today as we have a prayer walk.  Thank you Jesus for your blessings.  Amen!

Today was the last large group of Fall 2003.  The Lord is awesome, it was awesome to have my buddy Derek and Ailis join IV this friday.  Even more awesome they joined me for some prayer with the prayer team.  Today I just can’t help but notice how these prayers are being answers right before my eyes and I can’t tell you how amazing it is.  I see God really using us and answering our prayers (not that we are anything but God totally uses us).  I can see the fruitfulness of our obidence and surrendering ourselves to him.  Kathrine your testimony hit my heart.  I can totally related even though we may have different testimonies but awesome that you have the courage to share you faith with all of us.  Sweet action.  Praise God.  O, and is she a natural or what, funny gal and the funny thing is she has the same last name as Greg and I.  How interesting, hehe.  We are all family, u know .  Just hearing her testimony of how God made himself so real to her and how he was in pursue of Kathrine, goosh its just hecka tight to hear that.  Yan as well, praise the name of the Lord!  Let us rejoice and be glad.  Praise God that God used Bryan to speak into one of his student’s life, sweetness.  Who would ever imagine God would use a Chem. Professor to minister to the lost and even those his class.  God is moving…and its awesome to be apart of His movements.  Woot woot.